Sunday 17 February 2013

rare day out two and half hours bowling boys loved it







how can you tell a child

life as single mum can be hard at times you have to be both mummy and daddy. But at moment i am trying find away to explane to my olddest son has never met his dad and youngest sees his dad if you can call him that. Which means iv had t explane that some times far away is just to far for some people. For me half way around the world would not be to far any where i could get train bus boat or even push my self to i would. And by push my self i mean the fact that im in a wheelchair so pushing is a must. But how can you tell a child who you have always said to that there dad has just chosen not to have any thing to do with him so far. i would love my son to have a dad in his life but his life his choice. But how can you explane to a seven year old child that this person they built up in there mind is not wantiing to know them love them and be apart of there life when they are only just down the road.
There are times when you have to look at there benifits of the truth and the benifits of keeping back information.
I have always chosen to say to him that his dad loves him as i like to think that he dos so i think that is the truth or hope it is.
But it dos break my heart to see my amazing little boy his deep big blue eyes looking at me saying why dont i see my daddy yet kai sees his.
His life is hard enough as it is without this holding him back in life , he was born early and was born blue unable to breath.
He has some hearing problems and couple of other problems but he is a strong fighter and challenges life every day.
A child that takes on there world with passion how can you explain that his dad dos not have that same passion.
All i can telling him without any concern that i am not right in that belife is that i love him so much my hurt could burst his brother loves him and rest of family so how can so all i can really do is keep reminding him how loved his truley is. and how proud i am to be his mummy.

Family Matters

Family days out take alot of sorting out working out how getting there because of wheelchair and pushchair or sling. make sure iv got pain meds as well as my sons milk as he has to have oatly. I have to make sure that were ever we go that is safe for kierren as he cant hear well so have to make sure that he dont get pushed aside